for about two days, i was glad everything was back to normal after the holidays. i enjoyed the break, but vacations are always still busy, if in a different way from every day.
but suddenly i'm feeling overwhelmed again. there's a 30/10 Tribe event to plan, a new home to move into, bills to pay, merchandise to order, magazine issues to put out, brochures to be designed, church bulletins to be created...tasks that i feel both called and not called to be doing, but must to both fulfill my purpose in life and keep the bill collectors away.
i feel like every day of my life is a massive project that a smart person very well might not take on because it's impossible. time and money are equally needed and lacking, which puts me smack in the middle of a crowd of obligations and unable to move forward or backward.
i said something to rob today about there being a fine line between idealism and stupidity--i'm not sure right now what side we're on.